[Nettime-bold] Re: Hello I'd like to get some copy of my tapes!!!

["juan nsk" <juannsk@hotmail.com>]

John Paul II:
             Forget my past:Erase my sins.


>From: "juan mutant" <juanmutant@hotmail.com>
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>Subject: Hello I'd like to get some copy of my tapes!!!
>Date: Thu, 04 Jul 2002 06:52:51 +0000
>
>Hey;I was the star in 2525 NATO victim from Buenos Aires:look:it's terrible 
>the events later all happened in my world.
>I was told some guy gave you a tape from me when I was 4 years old playing 
>piano;I don't really remember what's the song:a minor,g,f,e.
>Some spanish like song which later comes to f,e.And other tape from XXX 
>russian tape from Berlin Transmutandertal(I don't like so much to tell the 
>voice in zquizo ways).
>Then I was told by the same guy who kept the tape,voice of info:this(it's 
>all my death wish since I was 4 years old now I'm 32 going to 33 if I'm 
>still living;you know hiv?)
>Well;this was kept by a nazi guy here in Bs As Videla who was a lover of my 
>father and even was living in front of my apartment for a long time;my 
>parents always did failure success to my career by keeping me all the time 
>hidden creativity of mine and growing into hysteria to erase my 
>possibilities in art;so as to kill myself in the biggest depressions you 
>can imagine of destrying all the house,throw away things out of the 
>balcony;for the a damned sick monster bastard who my family is(cannibals in 
>Satan's rites for getting work).
>I was all the time looking and wishing all this back;because that was a 
>secret;whenever it was revealed;they just killed people or make them 
>vanished in fear or anthypathy or just got dimissed or got lost or missing 
>or hated forever,never surrendered the fight it always went on and on and 
>on...;or hide it or make things disappear by the art of magic.Even people 
>disappear;you know this politics of war that you just make something to 
>someone and we create motions:all this suddenly disappear and I was really 
>happy;just looking for something hidden when even you didn't even know what 
>you were looking for later:it was there(then you remember,ah,that's 
>this:never found,it was nothing;just created by a sick mind).Everywhere.
>I had many things in my life hidden like things I wrote:I was a terror 
>novelist and science fiction or tales when I was a child,my father was an 
>embassador in Brasil(77)I was writting poems of terror about that little 
>which which always had to be my mother in a house being killed by knifes 
>and axes;we all the time wanted to kill her.The thing is maybe that I 
>cannot remember:I ACTUALLY LIVE IT BY THIS PSYCHO FUTURE.
>The point about this that this was given to witches from Brasil,then to 
>this little nanny from The Omen from David Seltzer movie;that was my 
>favorite death from the movie,maybe this was interesting for you using all 
>this samples,we belonged also in hidden or isolated and lonely culture of 
>suffering torture all this universal chaos in our brain frequenzes of 
>constant silence in our dreams about his damned tunnels,then this 
>loneliness of constant mindwar of imaginary defenseless enemies we conquer 
>for something not so much to remember.
>Hey;is it true all this?
>What's the bases in Hitler:you just cannot forget.
>I do not even cannot forget but I've made an inventarium of all this lost 
>things written and  played and created.All is lost in all the world;I've 
>turned to be a beggar with some money but totally alone and bewitched and 
>cursed;I hate this hate feeling in me,just never found this behaviour of 
>constant understanding so good.It's all the time excuse after excuse then 
>just accept all this comprehension in my head about others.
>I even get deleted by the past:I feel terrible I hope I don't get into AIDS 
>nor even HIV positiv now that I had bad news.
>Life has given me such a kick of bad fortune lately all this about my 
>friends killed,all this about this rape,and this cynical torture from 
>Buenos Aires by real fascists in this culture of Laibach in which there is 
>nopthing to talk about,you don't get a fucking thing except money for 
>nothing going on in you but humillation from the poor and not even much for 
>the reason it doesn't value all but this.
>Sorry.
>Juan Camilion NSK passport.
>Eraserhead memory about Macbeth:I still love your music;I hope we get 
>alright.
>Say the best for Inke Arns and Katherine Gates;
>all the bests
>Then later I cannot tell the bests to all because I cannot tell the 
>future:Life just goes on and on.
>I've sent 50 more less cds to NSK Information Centre;about all registered 
>music from all of us squaters in the team from Argentina UN business,which 
>is dying little by little for it's little resistence in the system of 
>agreements,I never declared this all fascist at all,this agreements,but 
>sometimes you must be careful:all the time the system fails and always wins 
>and sometimes noce surprises from it like death victory;it always lied.I 
>hope I don't predict things so chau.
>You are never sure.
>Chau.ç
>Love
>laibach nsk
>




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